Last night, I sat down to write, as I often do when moving inward to find new answers to old problems.  There are some lessons that seem to hang around for while, and I believe that I have finally come to a place of both acceptance and delight in the ongoing journey of transformation.  What came out was this new idea of the “Birthing of Self” as I shared on facebook:

“You have all the time in the world” has suddenly taken on a whole new level of meaning for myself… To give myself the gift of time, to explore every part of my being in my becoming..to honor myself worthy without the pressure, the should’s, the results I want now in my life that seem so far away, is a whole other type of sacred love..a dance with the sexual creation and arousal of myself…With time, with love, with nurture; I expand, I evolve, I am reborn, and there I arrive…whole, perfect, and complete.♥”

Reflecting on last night, I am reminded by what Eckhart Tolle says about stress being the conflict felt when wanting to be where you are not.  So often I hear entrepreneurs talk about their business, like I do the size of my belly.  “I wish it were different.  I wish I had the results I want now.  It’s going to take too long to get to where I want to go, I might as well not try. I want it all figured out.  I’m afraid to be seen…etc. “  I have a lot of compassion for the pressure that we place on ourselves to obtain our desires NOW.

Perhaps it’s because I have learned through the journey of my own self body-hate/love  to be more compassionate in my life, I have actually treated my business much differently.  I am open to it’s evolving.  To it showing me my next steps. To taking it slow and really loving the creative process and the journey. It has rewarded me immensely. It has filled me with purpose, a lifestyle that I love, connections beyond belief, and just as importantly has taught me about faith, trust, and love of myself and god.

Perhaps we can learn from one another and these core values.

You see, last night I was writing about my body image.  I recently received pictures back from Moxie Camp, with Lex Vernon, the live event I went to 2 weeks ago in NYC for socialpreneurs and I was mortified. I cried. I hated how I looked and I became hateful to myself for “not being enough” in all areas of my life.  I also freaked because in 2 weeks I will be attending Brendon Bruchard’s World’s Greatest Speaker Trainer Event, which means again, not hiding behind my computer screen. My old wound’s found themselves triggered as I have been working on letting go of the belief that a slim and toned body is a safety zone for success and love. And, while I have come so far, I am grateful these photos came up to show me the next layer of my onion to peel, as visibility and self acceptance is key to sharing my message of authenticity and love.

Yes, it is a journey.

So what does all this mean and why is it important…Body Image, Business, Results, Pressure, This Birth of Self..

Well, I recognized for the first time that I was cutting myself off from being worthy of time, the time to transform my physical body as I truly wanted.  As I went through my inquiry, I thought about how in Tantra, when you make love to someone, you take as much time as you want and need, sometimes even days to set the stage, to awaken the body through breath, touch, sound, meditations, etc.   This preparation is a sacred act and each moment is just as important as the final peak of orgasm.

And yet, I was not allowing myself the same experience to get the results I wanted in my physical body.  I was denying myself the journey of understanding my needs, my desires, my emotions that lied in the layers of my skin.  I was denying myself the preparation for the results I really wanted, and thus I was getting actually what I was putting out. I body asking for more attention and love, not self-criticism and sabotage.

And I know that there are many of you who are struggling similarly with something in your life, perhaps your own body image, or maybe the pressure of building your business.  To this, I want to say, slow down, injoy the ride, listen.  Feel your way through and allow each step to have the time and space it is asking for.  Your perfect brand will evolve as you do, your perfect partners, clients, and opportunities will appear as you understand what you want and who you want to work with.  Do not cut yourself short from receiving all that you truly desire.  It really is both the cultivation of the journey, not just the destination that creates our total life experience.

As you create your ideal life, as you give birth to the self and lifestyle you truly wish to live; explore, appreciate, and release the pressure and the self-doubt.  We have a whole life time to arrive, to be born; and when you take the time you are truly worthy of, when you allow love, nurture, and care to be your guide, you receive gifts unimaginable to where you stand when you begin.

Don’t always rush the Now. You’re in the perfect place and you are enough.
I promise you.
Welcome to Loving Your Authentic Life; to being Loved, Seen, and Heard.

July 2013 Issue